Thats.Just.Life.
Sunday, September 25, 2005 @ 4:52 PM
Time
Time

I wish we had more time each day, or rather, more days each week. It really stinks having such a short weekend in which to squeeze in friends and family into 1 whole day. Now I'm not really complaining cos my situation is much better than the infantry chaps, but still, I really hope we could all have more time in which to spend with those we love.

Outings, animes, and luxurious quality sleep all require time.. lol whatever am I doing in front of this blasted com.. sigh I guess its really all about time management.. plus the usual coffee supplement haha.. Half the time these days my eyes are really just half closed.

Dang blogger seems to be having this cookie problem.. can't seem to post pics anymore.. *cry oh well, maybe its just this com? lol muz try to fix it k guys? U hear me?? Hmm I can't find a game worth playing anymore.. Getting really bored.. Its just gonna be back to camp for me.. Will I end up in Chong Pang, my instructors don't seem to be letting us know.. Stop spinning us in circles pls!

But if that really happens, I'm so gonna miss the guys.. visit me ya if you aren't suay enough to follow me ^^

No matter what you do or say, you are worth everything to me..

Saturday, September 24, 2005 @ 10:47 AM
New Skin!
New Skin!

Hurray! Thats.Just.Life has gotten a new blogskin! Wahaha now pretty much just waiting for Lyn to do up my personalized blogskin! Lol many thanks Lyn, I feel so paisey..

Have fun guys! Hope we'll all keep in touch this way.. Peace!

I love life's bumpy road, at least it keeps me awake to realities..

@ 9:13 AM
Back!
Back!

Lol I'm finally back home now whee!! Caught up on my animes missed over the past week. Wahaha guys, please do check out Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children the movie. U can dl it on torrent sites now. Its a really cool show! While you people who have never played the game itself might have quite a few unanswered questions, the action sequences are really top notch, not to mention the excellent animation. Guys you must definately watch this show!!

Enuff said haha think I better not advertise too much huh? Lol currently I'm going into the final phase of my training as an officer cadet. Still in the dark about what weapon system I'm going into, but I can ensure you guys that its gonna be the toughest time for me physically and mentally. Hope I don't come back a broken man..

But the chances are I'll be going to Guns, the toughest course of all so they say. Suicide, the seniors told me. Haha I also dunno wad made me choose guns, it was pretty much just a feeling.. lol hope it won't kill me.. Wish me luck!!

Friday, September 23, 2005 @ 3:01 PM
Q & A
haha more Q&As for today lol once again ripped off from peoples pages lol

[] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol. (recently quit pls dun be suprised lol)
[] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am (not anymore)
[] I listen to political music.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] open up to others easily.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world
[] I watch the news.
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player (iRiver ard my neck)
[] I own something from Hot Topic
[] I love Disney Movies
[X] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[] don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly. ( trying hard to stop )
[] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[] I am a sports fanatic
[] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation. (lol)
[] I love Spam.
[] I bake well
[] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job (I'm an Air Force man!)
[] I love Martha Stewart
[X] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. *(I know 1 who does haha)
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] like to laugh.
[] I smoke a pack a day.
[] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.. (At times la..)
[x] I've been out of this country.
[] I believe in ghosts.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[] I see a therapist.
[x] I love white chocolate. (Yum!)
[x] I bite my nails. (Very rare)
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games/video games. (A lot less noe T_T)
[x] I'm single.
[] I'm in a myspace relationship.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[] Saw a shooting star.
[] I had a serious Surgery.
[] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[] I have Kissed a Stranger
[] Hugged a stranger.
[x] Been in a fist fight. (we're all guys lol)
[] Been arrested.
[] laughed and had milk/RICE come out of your nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (young once..)
[] Made out in an elevator
[]Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts (lol a few :p)
[x]Been close to love.
[]Been to a casino.
[] Been skydiving.
[] Broken a bone.
[x] Skipped school.
[] Flashed someone.
[] Saw a therapist
[] Done a split.
[x] Played spin the bottle.
[x] Gotten stitches (3 above my eye)
[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour (I love milk..)
[x] Bitten someone.
[] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[] Kissed a member of the same sex.
[] Crashed into a friend's car *(no car, sadly. really want a Mercedes SLR MCLAREN)
[x] Been to Japan (can't wait to go back)
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[] Shoplifted.
[] Been fired
[] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[] Stole something from your job.
[] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Lied to a friend
[] Had a crush on a teacher/sub
[] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[] Been to Europe.
[] Slept with a co-worker.
[] Been married.
[] Gotten divorced
[] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying. (Didn't die in front of me though)
[] Been to Africa
[] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[] Been to Canada
[] Been to Mexico.
[x] Been on a plane.
[] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi.
[] Been snowboarding
[] Been Skiing
[] Met someone in person from the internet.
[] Been moshing at a rock show.
[] Been to a moto cross show
[] Lost a child(miscarrage and lost lil in a store)
[] Gone to college <-- this means university
[] Done hard drugs
[] Taken painkillers
[] Had someone cheat on you.
[x] Miss someone right now.
[] Don't like anyone in your town enough to call them a "friend".

Wa some of these questions I don't understand lei.. haha

@ 2:23 PM
Mooncake Fest
Mooncake Festa

On the 21st of Sept, 30 wheelchairs headed to Chinese Gardens from Cheshire Home. On them were 30 disabled old folks. Following them were a team of young, helpful and energetic men from AFS ^^. There motive? To celebrate the Mooncake Festival.


Cheshire Home is a home for the disabled nestled somewhere in Serangoon Gardens. An adopted home of AFS, we visit them monthly for spring cleaning as well as events such as this.


Not my first time there cos I went there about 2 months ago for spring cleaning, so I was familiar with some of them there. In them I saw how fortunate I was.. In them I saw strength despite infirmities. In them there was love. While they were somewhat pitiful in some cases, most were high in spirits. Kudos to these valiant people!


I accompanied this lady called Li Li (i think..lol sry cant make out her name when she said it). She was pretty shy at first, tired and wanted to go home. While we bought them around, we talked. At the end of it all, the smile on her face and the sparkle in her eyes were the best ever reward I could have.


I thank God that I am still young and healthy right now.. and I hope to stay this way as long as possible.. Old age comes to all I guess, but one will never be old if you're young at heart.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005 @ 12:43 PM
0.o
haha was pretty much wondering wad to post then I saw this on Lyn's and Zhi Ai's blog haha.. maybe might give u guys a bit more insight about me ^^; Oh btw, yeah.. its amusing haha..

10 Favorites...
Favorite Color: Black, White
Favorite Food: Japanese/Korean Cuisine, Mars Bars
Favorite Band/Singer: BoA, Lena Park
Favorite Song: Miracle by Lena Park
Favorite Movie: Dunno lei..
Favorite Sport: Soccer, Basketball
Favorite Season: Winter
Favorite Day Of the Week: Sunday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Rum n Raisins
Favorite Time of Day: Night

9 Currents...
Current Mood: Zombified (as usual)
Current Taste: ?? huh ?? U mean wad i taste like?
Current Clothes: No.4
Current Desktop Picture: FFXI poster
Current Toenail Color: uh.. i don't paint my nails
Current Time:1255
Current Surroundings: Cyberspace
Current Annoyance: Wad am I doing in a Library??
Current Thoughts: I wanna sleep..

8 Firsts...
First Best Friends: Jia Hui, Calvin (Keming Pri)
First movie: I've lived a long time..
First Screen Name: Wads this mean??
First Pet: Uh.. fish? Dead long long time ago..
First Piercing: The first time i got jabbed
First Crush: Not telling!! haha
First Music You Remember Hearing: Some Hokkien song i guess
First Car: In my dreamz..

7 Lasts...
Last Cigarette: 2nd hand everyday..
Last Drink: Hmm.. 3 weeks ago?
Last Car Ride: Taxi count? lol last sat
Last food you ate: Chicken chicken chicken.. its always chicken
Last Movie Seen: The Cave
Last Phone Call: Home
Last CD Played: BoA - Girls on Top

6 Have You Evers....
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: No.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: Don't think so..
Have You Ever Been Arrested: No.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: No.
Have You Ever Been on TV: No
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: Nope
Have you ever met anyone from deviantART: Wassat?

5 Things....
You're Wearing: Army issue green
Done Today: Pull-ups, push ups, eat, slack and blog
You Can Hear Right Now: Lotsa typing around me..
You Can't Live Without: Computer, Handphone, Friends, Food
You Do When You're Bored: Sleep, Anime, Games

4 Places You've Been...
1. Japan!
2. Hong Kong
3. Korea!
4. Australia

3 People You Can Tell Anything To...
1. God
2. Grandma
3. Myself

2 Choices...
1. Black or White: White
2. Hot or Cold: Hot ( I scared cold ><)

1 Thing You Want to Do Before you die:
Close my eyes and smile

Sunday, September 18, 2005 @ 4:49 PM
Update
Updates

Haha pretty much forced to post this lol.. Lyn was asking me to update so i LL no choice HaiX.. really dunno wad to write lei so maybe I juz give a lil update on my current life.



I'm going through a great phase now! Haha been so very happy these few days! Despite hectic schedules plus dumb training, I've really had the chance to enjoy throughout the week. E moon has been so very bright and round..



Just another 2 weeks or so and i'll be moving into the next phase of my training: the Weapons Phase. This will end next year around Feb or Mar with my commisioning as an officer. Well thats if I make the cut anyway lolz. Hope I can survive till then ^^. I hear its a very tough period sigh.. Have faith in my guys and gals!



Right now as soon as I finish this post I'm off to meet friends again at Causeway Point. Haha gonna go pig out before I go back to camp Time to face the sand cans..



Say Lyn, have fun with this footer lol..



Take your time, i'll just be sitting here with my arms open for you.. always..

Saturday, September 17, 2005 @ 1:20 AM
Whats your future?
Whats Your Future?



Decisions were made over the past week. Decisions that may well change the path of my life. Right or wrong, I really can't say.. Its more of a feeling thing.. A thing that is pretty much a nice vision of what might come.. One might well end up as a failure.. Come next week, i'll be putting up my preference of weapon. If things go right, its the guns for me. I can't say its the right choice, but i really hope I can survive the training there..



Its been a tough week for the RSAF.. With one death of a really good man, it made me see ever so clearly the shortness of one's life. I didn't really know him, but he was in my camp. He was the best trainee of his course. Then a few days after his POP, he went. Just like that. The news was an absoulute shock to us all. Death comes to all, both young and old, and in recent cases, the young just seem as vulnerable. Life is truly nothing but a vapour.



I think I'm really an adult now.. the worries I have now are pretty much adult's worries.. finances, future, family and many others. "What would you do if suddenly you were more or less the sole breadwinner of the family at 19? Can you cope?" Never before have I thought of such things.. But now I see them as issues that have to be addressed.



Sobering thoughts huh? What is your future? Struggling to make ends meet cos you never planned for your future? Don't make the mistake. Its never too earky to have some form of plan for the future.

Saturday, September 10, 2005 @ 3:34 AM
Thoughts
Thoughts

Within a few weeks, my life has pretty much changed by quite a bit. Turned upside down, inside out, but I know that at the end of it all, life just keeps getting better.. God truly blesses and blesses again.. More insights, more understandings, more ideas of the precious things in life..



I think I finally understood her feelings totally.. If u happen to read this, i have read THAT post.. (lol was it for me though?) I know that perhaps whatever I said back then.. and recently doesn't help much, and I know that feelin too.. But know that no matter what, we will still be friends and nothing changes that fact. U should know i'm not the kinda proactive guy that initiates conversations, and i know your the shy type too.. so perhaps talk between the 2 of us won't come often.. I hope that kinda explains it..



The idea of leadership is so very strange.. What is a leader? A strong person who charges to the front? Some1 who leads with an iron fist? Or a benelovant person? I guess different people respond to different types of leadership.. I prolly fall into that last category i think.. Got some things done, some screwed up. Was it cos i had the welfare of my men at heart? Or was it just cos i though every1 could just do their best and not slack? Anyway "learn from your mistakes" thats what they always say.. But i' not sure if i'll do any different the next time around.. Maybe both soft and hard approaches must be used concurrently..



Sometimes I think about what people think of me.. I'm sure at some point in time perhaps we start to examine ourselves, our personality, and how people percieve us. I' m no saint, i have made some pretty bad decisions with which i am living with the consequences now. Some i have changed, while others still linger.. I'm not sure when i can finally break away the chains.. Am I a competant leader and friend? Or just another face in the crowd?



just a moment of silence in the arms of the one u love, no words need to be uttered.. just that moment of silent bliss..

@ 2:01 AM
D-Week
D-Week
Its really been a tiring and stressful week for me.. All of a sudden the role of CPC fell to me.. In case all u non-military ppl are wonderin, it stands for Cadet Platoon Commander. Now now there's nothing to be jealous of this despite it sounding prestigious, cos its not much more than a clueless person trying to tie loose ends together..

Truth be told, it was a lot of fun; challenging in fact. Runnin up and down looking for instructors and lecturers, calling them, getting @#$%ed when things somehow go wrong.. its a good challenge for handling stress, makes u think and act faster to solve problems that crop up (and they always do) >< I think I really gained much from this experience, yet i'm really relieved for this responsibility to be passed on the the next lucky.. or should i say unlucky guy.

Not to mention this gives me the opportunity to stand out a lil more, to be recognised by the course.

Course IC, bleedin noses, late cadets and miscomms, all these were events over the week. Well details are..shall we say restricted? lol sorry but as an SAF personnel, some things shouldn't be said ya?

Now i see this new CPC going through what I went through, and i can see myself doing the same things the past few days. Pretty much tickles my bones haha! Best of luck Joseph, it'll soon be over, don't take the stress too hard ya? It'll soon be over.. Work hard with your CPS 'cos takin over everything by yourself is way too hard and stressful..

Thanks to my CPS Ivan for all his help! U've been a great help!

@ 1:56 AM
Refurbishment
Refurbishment

Hurray a new skin for the site!! lolz this took me like hours to do.. I know i'm really a newb at such things.. Dun blame me can? I'm trying my bez to learn.. Its up to my two teachers who've helped me in this!!

Many thanks to Lyn and Sandy!!

Haha i know its like half done and stuff, but i'll try to put together something soon if i have the time.. Till then be patient ^^; with a lil practice it'll be better!!

Friday, September 02, 2005 @ 10:14 PM
Bad Boyz

Bad Boyz

Lolz just thought i should just add more photos in here ..

Here we have the guys from 03S14 my class in beautiful PJC !( some not pictured) Haha all 'shuai ges' ok? While we may not be the best lookin lot, I still think these are the best buch of guys i've eva met! Best times of my life have been in this not so famous skool, slacking reasonably while studying.

Now every1 is scattered all over S'pore in various vocations.. NS has gotten us.. lolz but we still keep good touch ^^ haha no worries there! S14 foreva!!

Hmm maybe I should add in our gals another day haha so wait k??

@ 9:31 PM
Love Come Back
Singer: Lena Park

Love Come Back

Now I know I had it all
cos I had you
just to see you made me smile
oh why was I too blind to see
that I had everything
that you completed me
I can still remember how
you held my hand
like you'd never let it go
but now here I am alone
trying to move on
wondering how a love like ours could go so wrong
~Chorus~
Will love come back to me? Come back again to me
when I still belive that your the one I need, oh
though I'm trying hard to make it through,
living is so empty without you,
and I wonder 'must we go on this way?'
You would catch my every fall
you forgave all that you knew was wrong with me
but I pushed you far away
too scared to call it love
what I wouldn't give to have you back again?
~Chorus~
And if someday in some dream we meet again
and in that dream I'd have the chance to speak to you again
I know that if I were to say 'I love you' now its still too late
but just to say the words i'd tell you anyway
~Chorus~
Will love come back to me?
Will love be just like you?
If it isn't you I don't know what to do
and the more I try to start again
the more I miss you
Baby tell me somehow we'll find a way..

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Benjamin Chen
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Keming Pri > BPGHS > PJC > SMU
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