Thoughts

Within a few weeks, my life has pretty much changed by quite a bit. Turned upside down, inside out, but I know that at the end of it all, life just keeps getting better.. God truly blesses and blesses again.. More insights, more understandings, more ideas of the precious things in life..



I think I finally understood her feelings totally.. If u happen to read this, i have read THAT post.. (lol was it for me though?) I know that perhaps whatever I said back then.. and recently doesn't help much, and I know that feelin too.. But know that no matter what, we will still be friends and nothing changes that fact. U should know i'm not the kinda proactive guy that initiates conversations, and i know your the shy type too.. so perhaps talk between the 2 of us won't come often.. I hope that kinda explains it..



The idea of leadership is so very strange.. What is a leader? A strong person who charges to the front? Some1 who leads with an iron fist? Or a benelovant person? I guess different people respond to different types of leadership.. I prolly fall into that last category i think.. Got some things done, some screwed up. Was it cos i had the welfare of my men at heart? Or was it just cos i though every1 could just do their best and not slack? Anyway "learn from your mistakes" thats what they always say.. But i' not sure if i'll do any different the next time around.. Maybe both soft and hard approaches must be used concurrently..



Sometimes I think about what people think of me.. I'm sure at some point in time perhaps we start to examine ourselves, our personality, and how people percieve us. I' m no saint, i have made some pretty bad decisions with which i am living with the consequences now. Some i have changed, while others still linger.. I'm not sure when i can finally break away the chains.. Am I a competant leader and friend? Or just another face in the crowd?



just a moment of silence in the arms of the one u love, no words need to be uttered.. just that moment of silent bliss..