Memories

Zel was talking to me yesterday bout how their lil travel group was saying about how I was when I was young. Really got me thinking a little, trying to recollect some form of memories from like years ago. And I came up with the conclusion: my memory sucks.

Seriously, I have near zero recollection of my childhood. Aside from some really strong memories, most are faded, blurred, or even wiped out.. Do I place so little emphasis on the past? I felt a little scared.. Will I forget 10 years down the road my past friends, my experiences in school, heck even my current course which I'm in? Why do I find it so hard to grasp my memories?

Perhaps I really am a happy go lucky person. Perhaps I am living life day by day. Maybe I'm really just lazy to keep my memories. Or maybe.. I'm that much of a loner? Lol I find it hard to convince people that I'm a loner. Its true, cos I feel pretty comfortable being left alone. But don't get me wrong, I'd rather company and love than solitude, just that being alone seems to be 2nd nature to me. My closer friends can tell that I can be in a group and then space out if no ones conversing with me.

What are memories? How are they formed? How do we keep them? Using physical references? Or just grey matter? What forms a vivid memory and which just fade over time?

Perhaps my memories are all submerged somewhere in a place I can't reach. I need somebody to jolt it out of me.. Indeed it is this way most of the time.. Till then, these few months are time which I'll never want to forget.