Paradox

After a week of numerous duties, I finally get a long-awaited break. Doesn't help to find out that I still got 21 days of leave to clear, which is nearly impossible considering the things ahead of me. Maybe I should reall go plan what to do with all these days..

Nonetheless, why do I feel this way? Stuck at home and its raining outside.. wanted to do so many things today.. But the rain just dampens the spirit, not to mention the sleep inducing effects of it..

Weekend is gone this week.. sigh.. but at least I still got to see her..

Paradoxes of life really revealed themselves to me.. An unhappy off-day? Unhappy when theres no work to be done? Even hanging out playing the PSP in the comms room somehow washed me with a bit of boredom. Whats the balance between work satisfaction and work saturation. Or even work dilution?

When I headed over to tutor Juliana.. Somehow it felt good that I was doing something productive, something helpful.. Now, at the keyboard of the computer or the console of the PS2, it was like going through the motion.. "Ben >> bored with games??" Pretty much an unlikely scenario.. but why?

Would love to dismiss it as a natural transition to adulthood, but is it true? Is this growing up? Maybe I have got issues I don't even know about? Indeed, human behavior and thinking is so complex. Can anyone fully comprehend the heart?

Completed the Proud Mode of KH2 just now after a long delay. Hurray! Oh well the extra bonus trailer was pretty interesting ^^ a KH3? who knows? lol.. Guess I'll cheer up and head out soon. Can't let a bit of rain put me down ya? Gambatte ne! I'm gonna be happy!

There are many worlds, but only one sky. One sky, one destiny - KH2