Momentum
Realized that I've been blogging more in the past few weeks than the rest of the year combined, so why not carry on that momentum? Its been a great holiday, lots of training, food, projects even, and a fantastic Family Camp in Desaru. Its a pity the Taiwan trip didn't materialize, or that its been such a gloomy and rainy period of time, or that I've been too busy to windsurf as much as I wished. Nonetheless, its been one of my happiest holiday periods to date. I would love to wrap up my year in this post, but there are just too many things.
Once again, more friends have returned, and some have left. Soon I'll be joining that crowd and leaving for my own adventure out there in Europe, living a truly independent life, needing to adapt, and to plan my time and finances all the more strictly. I wonder how I'll stand up to the challenge. But I know that it would be a great learning experience. I doubt that anything can replace this chapter that is to come. So many pages, and the protagonist has near zero idea how the script is going to play out. That would take the fun out of it wouldn't it?
I know I'll leave with mixed feelings. To leave so many loved ones back in Singapore would definitely leave me with a tinge of sadness and longing. But yet the compelling glitter over the horizon leads me to understand that I must go and have my adventure, and return to tell the tale, even more cherishing the ties that remain strong despite the separation of time and space.
December taught me about friendship and of patience. And as 2010 comes and new beginnings dawn, I must again make my resolutions and keep them. I felt that I had kept resolutions last year (with the help of backtracking to that post and re-assessing them). That was a nice surprise, for I had kept them without really having to remind myself. Of course, I wouldn't say I achieved them perfectly, but I believe that I had done an adequate job.
I only have one resolution this coming year.
To be more empathetic. To be more aware of the needs and feelings of others, without which I cannot minister. That would serve to better complete myself as a person and a good servant. Something that I have admittedly been lacking severely. I can't just call myself "kayu" all the time and accept it as an inherent weakness that I cannot change right?
I think its a real challenge to keep this one. But i'll do my very best. In itself, that's an irony! Empathy cannot be forced. Which just made it all the more harder.