Its definitely been a long time since I returned here to post about stuff. The last 6 months has definitely passed by like a whirlwind, and it seems like yesterday when I boarded the plane for the United Kingdom. Indeed, this is the epitome of the saying "time flies when you're having fun". And I did had fun. In fact, so much fun that returning to my home Singapore has been pretty difficult. There, I lead a life that was close to ideal.

But ideals are never possible, are they?

I still hope that they are. And Europe has opened up horizons and perspectives that I never had. Realising that everything in this world is relative (except for God) was perhaps the most important lesson I learnt. What we see and how we judge are often in the eyes shaped by the cultures we were born in. How then, can our personal opinions hold any strength anymore? It is much like ethics, where there are a dozen and one different ways to be ethical, yet seem unethical by someone else. A situation where simple logic doesn't prevail, where economics take a backseat and simple emotions and unguided feelings take centerstage. Perhaps, no one but God could ever be considered "right".

Home has been redefined. Its it now to me a place where we accept as our own despite the obvious failings it possesses. Singapore, my home. Although I see very clearly its faults and its ugly sides, it still is the place where I would give my life to defend. Indeed, it is amazing how a symbol like "country" can lead men to such conclusions.

5 months of exploring the world, 1 month for exploring myself. And it was, alone in Italy, that I managed to spend a little more time knowing myself, and tossing around questions that lead me closer to who I am. I'm glad to say I've come out a little more familiar with myself, even with the demons that lurk within me. The challenge now is beating them.

And now, back in (un)familiar surroundings, I continue to turn the pages of my life, looking back on the most fantastic side story that could be akin to Alice and Wonderland. Would I ever be able to return to that Wonderland? I sure hope so, for I know I'll miss this sensation for the rest of my life.